Rungitom November Recap

My month, November comes to an end… even though this is my birthday month, I have gone through so many emotional challenges and breakdown. It affect so deeply in my heart that I almost lose control of it myself, darkness was upon me but I keep on praying and praying.

And God did answer my prayers, I stopped all the sadness and went into a period of death in my heart; through the death my heart burned off to make way for a new heart, to take control of my life once again. I stepped up and moved on, forgetting Lady Beatrice who was the lady of my life. There is so much things to do, so I can’t give up yet.

In the process of healing myself, I succeeded to revamp my blog layout from sheer darkness to a lighter and cheerful mood, I also include some tweaking and added up social networking function on my new layout. The year one cycle of my blog has ended and was born anew. My November theme, R2.0 (Rungitom 2.0) which I derived from BorneoColours.com B2.0 was merely a jump-start for me to utilize my blog to its full potential.

Lady Irish(Lady Rainbow) in my life

It was a sudden thing on how we got along, she was in a total nervous breakdown much more greater and painful that myself. Its affecting her too much, so I offered myself to help to get through her ordeal. From just a chat on Facebook, we then called each other by phone; I took a great deal of time to comfort her and giving all my advice from my experiences. That last weekend I stopped tweeting and and focus on helping her as much as I can.

Her so called “lover”, was cheating on her, that stupid fool was already engaged to another lady earlier before he even met Lady Irish; but he was still playing with Lady Irish’s heart and made her a fool…

I raged to hear how much she had suffered from that relationship, I asked her to move on, get back to her family and slowly build back her lost life. But yesterday changed everything…

She admits that she still love the guy and asked me to leave(but how can I leave halfway like this???)

She admit she loved everything that I have given to her, but she feared that she may break my heart… I said I don’t care… but she insisted me to stop doing it again…

And that is when I lost contact with her, I hope that she will not do anything stupid; I hope she comes back to her family and recuperate. Somehow I strongly believe that she will do just fine, just…

I care for her so much, much like I care for my lady of my life, it breaks my heart when she never again contact me anymore. That is why now I miss her presence so much, her brief happiness with me was a bright ray of light in my dark and lonely heart.

she did mention that her plan was either go back to her hometown in Lahad Datu or go out from Sabah. Now I am the one was left devastated, I grasped the light just to have it taken away again in a very short time.

Guess that’s how my November ends…