I did mention before in my old blog, that I will never blog about things that is very personal anymore. Can’t help to share it for this entry, I’m letting out something that I always hold back all this time. At least I’m doing in a form of electronically written text, rather than doing other things that may harm me or other people.
This morning I woke up with a mixed feeling, tried to stay positive and saying that “I’m fine” masks my deep feeling which is too complicated to be understood by anyone (haa! complicated heart!). Its been more than 1 year after she left me,I resented the way she did to me. Time passed by and the feelings to her faded away, since then I’ve been so afraid to commit to a new relationship, not because I’m afraid to be broken-hearted again, its because I’m confused about my own feelings. Is it true love? is it just infatuation? is it because she got big boobs, dat ass and what nots? is it just a rebound-love thingy?
There’s a conflict inside me…
Why not give it a try, she looks sweet and have this charming personality
Can you afford her? what id she asked you to marry her in 1 year time?
Look at her, she needs someone to to talk to and you are available to do that
Hey! you got other important things to do! stop thinking of her!
She can be a good wife you know, get her before somebody else take her.
What you gonna do with her if you get her, sex all day?
Just confess that you have a crush on her.
Keep it to yourself, she will not like anyway
A great relationship, I can only imagine it in my dreams. I sound melancholic today, but anyway I will keep myself busy, to get this thing from bugging my thoughts. Here’s a song for you to listen, All My Only Dreams by The Wonders.
Some of the biggest challenges in relationships come from the fact that most people enter a relationship in order to get something. They’re trying to find someone who’s going to make them feel good. In reality, the only way a relationship will last is if you see your relationship as a place that you go to give, and not a place that you go to take. ~ Anthony Robbins